Man on Wire

Bored and with a broken Nook I picked up one of the many random books furnishing my place.  End the Fed by Ron Paul has already taught me much.  For starters, Ron Paul is old.  But most important of all is that all money is essentially worthless play money as nowadays it is, from what I can deduce, backed by fairy dust.

Great.

This past weekend I went to Pai with some farangs of mine and had a good time.  Pai is a city in the mountains that thrives off tourism yet doesn't feel touristy.  The air is fresh, the food is great, things aren't expensive, and there's plenty to do.  From Chiang Rai it takes a 3 hour bus ride to Chiang Mai, then another 3 hour ride to Pai.  The trip consisted of scuttling around on rented motorbikes through town and the hills to get to sites, great food, plenty of drinks, and plenty of card games.

Work is going well.

My cough went away when I was in Pai, up in the mountains, so I think I've got it from air pollution down here.  What's more is that I think the chest congestion may be why I feel a bit tired so frequently.  My body simply gets a bit less oxygen than it should as my lungs aren't banging on all cylinders.  Christ that's a lay theory but it sounds plausible.

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"Going home" is starting to sound pretty silly.  As if being here is just this chunk of time independent of all other things and afterwards I'll just get back to what I was doing at home.  Ha!  How boring and ordinary.  I've got the world in front of me and so much to tenaciously pursue. 

Last week I watched the movie Man on Wire and it's really getting to me.  It is a documentary about the French wire-walker, Philippe Petit, who walked across the Twin Towers in 1974.  The lengths this man went to to realize his dream are incredible and the intensity of his drive make me envious.  I want that.  I want to know what my dream is, to see something and think "That's it! If I die in pursuit of it so be it!"

How do you find something like that?

Warren Buffet is always serving up some tasty wisdom, some undeniable truth and here's one of my favorites that get's close.

“There comes a time when you ought to start doing what you want. Take a job that you love. You will jump out of bed in the morning. I think you are out of your mind if you keep taking jobs that you don't like because you think it will look good on your resume. Isn't that a little like saving up sex for your old age?” 

To find that thing that set's your brain on fire you have to follow your gut, do what you want, see where it takes you...and then keep going.  Someday you'll cross paths with 'it' and only because you set off in the right direction in the first place.  I think it's the same as dropping all inhibition (except for the really helpful ones like trying to see if you can juggle knives inhibition).  You have to just let go and say fuck it, I want that let's see where this goes.

So that's what I'm up to at the moment.

Here's are the links to watch Man on Wire on youtube.  Please watch it

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5